I hope this message finds you well,
And that you're finally taking care of yourself.
I was just thinking about the past.
Isn't it funny how memories are the only things that last?
I'm feeling guilty for the way that I left things off,
And with the fact that I didn't take more time,
To tell you I love you,
And take every chance to embrace you.
I so badly want to hear your voice again.
I lay awake at night sometimes but I still can't process,
Every thought and emotion that's trapped inside my head.
I'm a prisoner every day within myself,
Because I didn't ever think that I would lose you.
For the moment you left here I became numb,
Only breaking in moments when I'm alone,
Because that's when I realize,
What a fool I have been,
And I can never take it back.
If I'm being honest,
I will never forgive myself.
Every chance that I've missed,
Is a failure I've now felt.
I feel like I've let you down,
It's a shame I bear alone.
I'm not asking for forgiveness,
Just thought that you should know...
I'll regret this as long as I live.
It will hide behind my smile.
I don't deserve to have you back,
But God how I want that again.
I still see you in my mind.
I still feel your absence.
I just hope you knew I cared,
When I couldn't say it.
I just hope you understood,
What I desperately wanted to convey.
I'm counting the days.
Remembering every little thing,
And the words you spoke to me.
I just hope you knew I loved you,
Sincerely.
credits
from Catharsis,
released July 7, 2017
Music and lyrics written by Nick Tatosky
Arrangement by Nick Tatosky, Ethan Erickson, Zack Jeffrey, and Chase Meek
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